I felt really tired...

5 more mins sleep for me now is like a gift from god!

But even i got plenty of time to sleep at weekend, i already gotten use to wake early...

Work is boring, everyday i felt i was a robot without feeling, or i have to say, i was a ROBOT which has no necessary to have a brain...I repeat sort of stupid typing works again and again...Cant see my future...And my brain doesnt really wanna work now.

Even I have lovely swimming pool and gym in my living apartment, but almost two weeks, i didnt have chance to enjoy them.

What a poor life i have now. And gals in my age deserve better life than me. More and more ppl were curious why i dont have bf, even the TAXI drivers answered me.. I just dont have the answer. Or i am curious too! But I dont really care about that now, I am kinda enjoy the suck life i have now, I am kinda enjoy stay alone...The only problem is i really dont know how to take care myself, let me count, it is about two weeks or even more, i ddint eat rice at all. And during those day, i lost my appetite totally, i cant feel hungry, i dont know what should i eat for each meal. This afternoon, i felt a seriously stomachache, then i thought it might indicate i was hungry. Then i got some snack to eat.those chocolate, ice-cream, cheesecake...cant cheer me up at all. What da hell is wrong with me???

Finally I can access the Internet at my own place.....!!! Damn It!

Finally I can upload my photos on my blog.... 

But....

I still use the English version XP, cant type Chinese like before...

But....

I am back in the field.....

Big hands pls...:))))))

我只能说，我的空间已经好久没有那么热闹过了，不就是半个Pizza吗？ 之前写那么多心情不好或者生病的时候，也没见大家着这么关心来着。。。

看来中国人还是沿着我们老祖宗的传统在发展的：民以食为天！！！ 

半个小时以内，我吃掉了半个medium size的Pizza....

我疯掉了

一直在心里默念要减肥的我，估计是mission impossible了吧... 

There was a memory i thought i forgot already

There was someone i thought i can lock into the past

What a joke !!!

When i trying to back to normal

U were back...

I didnt expect sth happened but there was something happened...

I didnt expected sth changed but when i saw the truth

My heart was pain...

Why?

Am i care u that much even more than i can imagine...

I feel my hands r shaking rite now...

How could u let this happened to me

Am i that unimportant makes u even see me as invisible...

Have u ever consider how i think, how i feel??

No...i think i am only a temporary subsitution for u...

What can i say to u...

Maybe...

Never mind...

 

 I am so sorry, i cant deny i aint on line for a while. i am busy, busy, always busy...All about works...

 I am so sorry, i am lazy to apply the Hi-speed Internet service, but i will do it this week...

 I am so sorry, i dont have time to chat with u guys like before, i really dont have time now...

 I am so sorry, i made myself work to death, i have been sick for couple months, havent recovered yet...

 I am so sorry, i dont have holiday like before, then i can go back and see u guys...

 But, it is always the same words, i love u guys, never, ever change!!!

想念某些感觉，想念某些人...

到底是想念着某些人所以让自己想念起那些感觉

还是因为贪婪于某些感觉所以想起了某些人...

我到底寂寞吗？我到底还爱着吗？

清醒与迷醉之间，其实...没有间隔

又突然有了想消失的念头，把自己藏起来，不想与人接触，也不想被人接触

我终究不是属于群体的

越发的开怀，心离这个世界也越发的远了...

追求， 找不到自己想要的.

有时候连自己都找不到了，又怎么能奢求超于自我的东西

有多久没有脾气了...任凭别人的践踏与不屑

剩下的只有一笑而过...

想念被人宠的幸福，想念有人疼的温暖

想念你的手掌，握住我，

说

你是我的...