this is my first time to think myself is useless. the work is not going great so far, i am under a huge invisible pressure. Nobody notice that, but i am very sad. it makes me feel i am stupid. i wont run away from that, and i dont even scare of these stress. the things that i care about the most is how ppl think about me. there is very nice friend in the company, she helped and supported a lot. i just dont wanna keep bother her like i am such a baby!

    and today, i found i make a terrible, stupid mistake! i dont know what kind of consequence i am going to face. the only thing i concerned now is i disspoint ppl trust me, i screw up my confidences.

    i am getting weaker and weaker, feeling dizzy all day. and later of today, i will go back to my office to work over night. i may just can do nothing, but anyways i will do my best. i may done things badly, at least i am trying hard.

   coffee has been become my best friend now, each day i will have more than two cups to wake myself up. it was never work to me, either now. but once i had it, i make myself to trust it would help. for sure, if i keep this life for long time, i will be dead even fast.

 

   Today is Christina Aguilera's concert in Bangkok, my favor singer. unluckly, i cant go cuz i am still working.

   Today is the first showing day of " Transformer", i cant go cuz i stuck by overtime work.

   Then hope ppl r enjoying either of these two events, happy, happier and happiest forever!

    I love Christina Aguilera!!!!

i am in the office that i work at night.

today is a tough day cuz i was non-stop working at Philips whole day, and seems ppl dont trust me that much. fuck!

i've been sick for almost a week but i didnt tell anybody.

My coach is a slutty and bitch,but ppl trust her more than me. What a crap!!!

I feel like dying but i am still thiniking should i go back to Philips office after this work so i can finish some works for tmr.

I know, i am killing myself.what a freaking person!

     This is the longest time that i havent update my blog within last couple months. Problem is i dont have internet to access in my new apartment and if i apply it, i gonna stuck there at least 6 months with those roaches. Sooooooooooo disgusting!

     anyways, i am sure i will move again soon, maybe next month. I wont be that hurry this time. cuz my life now getting stable, i will spend my weekend to look around and try to find an ideal apartment fit with my current budget.

      Good news is i got more friends now, most of them r good and sweet.I am totally enjoy my life now:work, clubbing...etc. Even i have to work more than 10 hrs a day, but thinking about the outcome,  Tires???never show on my dictionary~

       Hope i can move to a cute and nice apartment sooner, then i can keep updating here as usual.

       All my lovers, pls take care urself, I love u guys~~~

 

 

    I am moving out this morning, i am still packing now, but really sleppy~i gonna go and got a coffee and meet up my new roommate later~hope we will have fun together~

 

      My working life in BKK officially started today.

      The job i took in Philips was getting better, I tried to practice some commands, it was still slowly cuz they weren't something i familiar with before, but i think i can handle it:) And my coach is a very girl, maybe i show u guys her photo later~