My new life is coming soon in BKK, hope everything will goes well.

        Seems I will be very busy but better than just waiting,hoping and dreaming.

        The same words, Never say no before try!

        I think i gonna move out soon. God, i hate moving, packing and sorting! and the most important thing is i need to spend sometimes to look for the new place. Damn it, feel lazy!

        I got the best and the worst birthday present within 5 mins. What da wonderful birthday. The two gifts i got from the same person, and also the one has given me two worst presents in these two months.What da good friends.

        Anyways, before i got these two "presents", i wa extremely happy, i watched almost 4 hrs movie < pirate of Caribbean 3> with my new close friend--Jenny. And i really have fun with this girl, cuz we all bitch:P

        And I made myself drunk after i got the worst "present", I felt hurt, sad, but there were no tears out. Maybe i am get use to be hurt by this person. Even I myself was wondering, why I never  be mad with this person, why i always pretent to be strong in front of this person? On the other side, this person can easily cotrol my mood by even a simple word.

       How many times I dream about meeting this person coincidently, suddenly became true today. How many times I pray something never gonna happen, accidently happened today. 

       This was the busiest birthday I never had before!

       Now, I am drunk, I feel sucks, I am alone, I feel dizzy...

       But, I think I still happy for this person, cuz finally win back the happiness, I can easily see this person smile from deep inside heart.

       There are something i may never gonna get them, but once i see someone i care a lot find them, get them, enjoy them. I feel happy for them. Cuz for me, I am staying in gray!      

        Happy birthday to me!

        I just had a bunch of cheesecake

        Whatever, cuz i am happy!!!

      My mood is fluctuated these days, for something, somebody of mine...

      Should I call, should I just wait

      These always be the questions without answers...

      Choices A & B

      Extremely different consequences

      Either better or worse

      Either try or give up

      These always be the chioces without answers...

      Let it gone with winds

      Let it melted by tears

      At the end, it is planted deep inside mind

      Spread everywhere

      Eyes, Heart

      Keep it, Hold it

      There is never be the end

      But actually a monodrama...

     

      There r two new EP released, one from Chris Brown, named < Wall to Wall>. Another from Black Eye peas, <More>, which also the new theme of Pepsi's TV Commercial. Here r their download addresses, i thought they r pretty cool, how ya think?

 

 

 

 

 

 

       发烧一直断断续续，感觉呼出的气都是热的，好难受哦！！！

        Z~Z~Z~Sleepy!!! Got fever discontinuously.

        Mama, need to sleep~

        Emm~free tomorrow, enjoy my life. Relax,having fun and indulge...

       夜里

       没有你的夜里

       没有爱的夜里

       听着你让我听的歌

       想着你唱给我的歌

       头好烫

       眼很涩

       我的眼泪

       我为你流的眼泪

       是干了吗

       脸上还是咸了

       只有声音的沙哑

       只有你让我听的歌

       只有讲不出话的哽咽

       只有无法开口的懦弱

       只有 只有只想说想你的冲动

       今生还不完欠你的债

       此世给不完爱你的痴

       让我下世再宠你一次吧

       心是给你了

       以后

       爱不在了

       眼无神了

       一切的一切

       停留在这里，保藏在这里

       纵使我不再有当初的单纯

       对你的心动

       千禧如此，恒久如此

       满眼的你，装在心里

       我会好好爱护

       放在心里最深最深的地方

       没有打扰 没有流逝

       只有轻抚的疼惜

       即使我的心一直刺痛 持续衰弱

       只有

       只有你还会是我留在这一世唯一的见证

       只有你

       让我生，却又生不如死      

      毕业了，即将进入人生下一个旅程，虽然还在无奈的等待中，可是任我心在乱，等待还是等待，我尽了最大的努力，对得起自己就是好的。再说，自己不是一直还在努力着的吗？有了信念，总还是会有光明的！！！所以精神也要好好打扫哦:)最近逼自己太紧，皮肤变差了，身体也不好，难道是减肥过度？？？（可是人家想要瘦嘛！）

     今天决定来个大扫除，扔掉不用的垃圾，洗掉臭臭的衣服，用积极开朗的态度面对一切，不论是自己想要的还是不想要的。

     曼谷的天气还是一样阴阴沉沉的，怪不得觉得自己缺乏能量，我可是号称“阳光之子”的哦， 快把我的能量还给我吧！

     感情的事，就让它放边边吧，在事业和感情之间，我想自己永远都会选择事业，是自己太现实，太自私。如果让我把自己的一生押在另一个人身上，我做不到。我也无法相信世上会有一个人会爱我一辈子，疼我，宠我。女人如我，想要的还是得要靠自己。要找到一个真正了解自己的人也很难吧，毕竟又有多少人可以忍受自己的女朋友长时间的专注于工作，不甘愿做自己的小女人呢。其实我也想做，但是找到一个对的人，应该不是我能拥有的吧。

     没有消极的态度，只是现在的自己更想专心于工作，或许会过于投入，像朋友说的工作狂吧。

     自己的另一半，交给老天吧，不再有当年自信轻狂的想法，觉得我看中的东西就一定会是我的。经历的多了，现在相信的只有万事尽力去做，即使得不到，最少不会后悔。努力过了，人生便也完整了。不是每个人都能拥有自己想要的东西的，但是每个人都有有梦的权力。有梦的人，脸上的笑看起来也是甜的。希望大家都能梦想成真！我也会努力哦，朝着自己的梦，带着自己的梦，拼命努力的往上爬，为了我可爱的妈妈爸爸，为了你们的快乐幸福，让我的小宇宙爆炸吧！！！

         Fuck!!!! finally finished my study in ABAC.

         This was the last exam i took in ABAC this afternoon!!!

         Congratulation to myself~But, oops, got fever again! Suffering terrible headache...

         雨下了有多过一个星期了吧，天上的娃娃为什么最近哭的那么厉害？害的我也想哭了。

         你们也寂寞吗？

         原来我们都很寂寞。。。

         亲爱的肖宝宝也快要回中国了，接下来的半个月里，应该是冬眠的时机吧。

         可是冬眠不是就长胖了吗？？？寂寞又是最好的养料。。。

         想要的我不敢想，怕想多了就飞走了。就让一切成为未知，或许才有希望。

         Rain makes me blind, lightning makes me deaf...

         There is a voice inside my heart, said: Dont be sad, i will sad what u sad and u will be free!

      很久很久都没有用中文写过东西了，似乎是本着要把globalization的道路坚决走下去的决心，其实是自己太懒了。都说我们中华民族历史悠长，文化璀璨，从前一直引以为敖的文笔，最近用来却越发的不顺手了。很多词生疏了，很多句阻滞了。怕写出来丢人了，干脆就写最简单的吧，不用想那么多，写错了也可以用”我不是native speaker"的借口搪塞过去。

      时间真的是一天天的就把人磨老了，身边的人好象都比自己年轻，人家都是1字打头或是刚刚迈入2的行列，我却在毫无知觉的状态下在2里爬行了快3年了。3年里，真的只是在爬行，从没有为自己的将来做过打算，还是一昧的依赖于家人。自己鼓足勇气下的决定在实行起来也是步步为垠。

      是自己放弃了生命太久，醒来时已经开始残败。我祈求自己还有一次绽放的机会，即使要孤身奋战，现在的我却觉得充满了力量，可是那个支持我的人，你会了吗？你又在哪里？

      孤单已经是习惯的生活方式，当下朋友的玩乐却也让我开心。现在才开始hang on with friends似乎是有点晚了，怪自己抽去了自己的灵魂，对现世的厌烦，对爱情的无求，我都快忘了我是谁。如今哪里跑来的勇气自己也说不清楚，再奋斗一次，在索求一次！原来我还是有想要得到的东西，我会为此努力，坚强。结局这种东西都太飘渺，如我这般快步入“阿姨”行列的假天真，童话已经不再解渴。28岁要结婚的愿望也先埋葬吧。就像那些fortune tellers给我算的，这一生注定爱的辛苦，寻不到真爱。如果真是注定，又何必苦苦深陷其中。或许爱情这种东西真是我不能奢求的，那就送给我爱的人吧，你们都会幸福的哦！

   

        I need to find a job within one month. This is my first time to make my own decision and i really wanna make it comes true. But, it is really really hard cuz i am not Thai and my Thai sucks!

        Come on, god, helps me !!!

        Everything is going out of my control. Ppl said that becuz i didnt try my best. That is not true! Even I look at the things in pessimistic way, i really know what i want now and i am trying hard to persue it.

        Things are not going well to me. Like what i said to my friend: i believe my abilities, the only thing i ask is a chance!

        Anyways,this is my life, never goes straight.Maybe i should go back to the normal route. Like what we learned from marketing course: higher expectation, normally gets higher dissatisfaction. Then, follow the destiny will be the best suitable way for me!

         Life really sucks! Let me exchange it with devil! 

        I dont like rain, ugly sky, wet road and bad mood.

        Ready to settle on sth, make the final decision, either the ending or begining, make me feel sort of panic.

        Anyways, try my best!!!

guys:

         Have u ever think this question: u r in love cuz u loved this person or u just love the feeling that this relationship brought to u?

         How much faith that u have to believe u can love one person for ur entire life? How could u be sure that someone u date now is ur true love? Someone seems to be happy to enjoy their relationships, someone stil keep looking around and hope they can find a better one. Then, what is the right way to reach the true love, to find ur Mr/Miss. charming? How could we know we find the right one or lost them?

         They all complicated questions for me. I think most of people r greedy, they wont give up someone they have now, but they also looking forward the next one. We may never know whether we made the right decision or not. If u r lucky, u may find ur true love and spend ur rest of life with he/she. But most of time, we just lost them without being conscious.

         World is cruel. There r no such "Cinderella" story.(Maybe it has, but not around me). The simple question for now is u wanna choose love or bread?

         Let's face the realism, and "true love" maybe is only something we can dream for...

    This series movies r getting more fantsatical. The previous series besides Spiderman, the world looks like normal, even the bad guys, they all need Hi-tech equipments. But now, we have sandman and an universal monster. And whoever got power or Hi-tech became so strenghten even they were normal ppl like us.

     Anyway, it is just the movie, forget about the scenario, the visual effects still look good.

     P.S.: I wanna be so slim as the lead of actress!