Weather, Air Con. make me sick again. How weak i am!

I miss my family and friends. It is sad to be alone when i am sick.

 

 

    I just read a space from a friend of mine, very cute girl but manly! Kinda she is facing same problems with me. I wonder is that the reason we become friends?

    I haven't talked to her couple months i think. But we leave messages to each other on our space or QQ. I know even we dont contact each other frequently, we care each other deep inside. It doesn't like someone, they keep calling u only coz they wanna something from u and u know what? They still pretent they really wanna be friends of u, but after things done, they just gone! What a jerk. Funny is they never realize they r jerk when they was talking to u there is "jerk" who is suck at driving!

    I have different friends, some r exactly like me, open-mind, some r mature and calm. Anyway, i just wanna tell my friends how much i love u guys. I know u guys understand i am kinda lazy sometimes, but i really miss u guys. I really miss the days we hang around together.

    No matter where u r,what u do, i still love u guys.  

       I was back at 5:30 this morning. It was fucking cool last night. I went to Anna's farewell party at Santika. I haven't been there long time. Now they have the new decoration but i still like the old one. Coz there were couches at second floor(i am kinda lazy...).But the point is i really have fun there. I met a lot new friends, they r rock and wild. I thought i was little drunk last night coz i danced!!! But i felt so good. Maybe i store too much pressures, it was a good chance to release them.

      Anyway, it is kinda cool to know some new friends and dance together. It is really cool to get sweaty! I really wanna do it again!

      Shake mama, shake, ShAkE!!!

        本来是个无比放松的夜晚，我坐在电脑前，磨着我的指甲，看着新的《Dirt》， 居然一只小强落在电脑桌前！Shit!!!一省惨叫后“理智的”我拨通了小肖的电话，请她救人一命，胜造七级浮屠。然而更惊悚的是，小强居然是会飞的。只觉得在接下来的几分钟内自己一直在惨叫及闪躲。。。还好还好，我的亲爱的小肖终于降服了这只怪物。My goodness,我的亲爱的小肖，少了你的话我该怎么办呢？？？还是贴着你吧，有了你的保护，我也睡的安心啊~挖哈哈哈哈哈~

      Where is my happiness? Where is my future?

      I am so jealous ppl around me. They know what they want, what they pursue, what they like?

      Me? I felt i am stuck in a crossroad, i have to make a choice which i don't familiar with, which may change my whole life. What should i do, who i can rely on? There is nobody here, even i am crying and  yelling. No one will hear that, no one will care that.

     Where is my happiness? R u still there? R u still gonna be with me?  But why u never show up when i needed u?

     My happiness, how long u still can stay with me? I know u might not remember what i look like, but u should know what i feel about u... 

        Finished MM presentation today, and it was the longest presentation i never had before. Lucky thing is I have great group member and loveable teacher.

        Anyway, I won't have any serious presentation in ABAC. And i am expecting my life can be new and different. I need something exciting and crazy to refresh myself.

         But, the first  thing is EnJoY SuMmEr TiMe !!!

      最近家里的蜘蛛越来越多了，比从前的长脚蜘蛛看起来要大，要明显，要黑。。。

      可是，还是可以在我可以不畏惧的范围内的。

      可是，它们还会再长吗？蜘蛛是可以打的吗？

      满家的蜘蛛爬啊爬。。。

      I am so sick, i think it is all because the exams and those shitty things.

      Good news is they all past or going to be past.

      I got 1kg fat, really piss me off, so i am trying to lose some weight, kinda hard~

      I am  so sick and i know i better get some rest. But i just cant stop.

      I hate stay at home and do nothing, it makes me even sicker.

      Hope next week my life will getting busy. I like busy. Hahaa~Geeking!

      By the way, those songs from "Dream grils" r really awesome. I like the song named" And I am telling u I am not going".Sad,pain but the singer is really good. 

     

    Two more subjects left in summer, i am going to graduate, happy? anxiety? Most of time i feel no direction.

    But i am trying so hard to complete my life. It ia really hard for me to do nothing. Only one week break during exam makes crazy. Busy is good for me i think.

    Seems i got a lot plan in summer, try to finish them one by one and hope not just finish them, there should be some outcomes wait for me.

    Anyway, it is time to think in different way, enjoy my life. It is time to say bye bye to something not belong to me.

    There r always some conflicts in my life. I am willing to challenge myself that i believe ppl can make things happen. In the other side, i think it is all about destiny. Maybe it is because there r two characters live inside me, sometimes makes me confused about myself.

    But i won't give up till the last minute!

       I hate the feeling that i just have now.

       It keeps torturing me, makes me crazy.

       That is no one can helps me but u, where r u now?

       I am trying to release myself, it just hard and pain.

       Why i am kepping thinking?

       That is no way to remember if it was just a trap, a lie...

       Why i turn myself into this?

       Even it was exciting and warm...

       I got to find the way out,it is totally a shit!

          我想我是认识你的，不管怎样，你没有经过我的同意就把我空间的地址恣意的粘贴在留园网上是非常不礼貌的！

 

如果有一天我走了，请不要觉得奇怪。是我受不住压力的困惑，是我脆弱的妥协。。。

如果有一天我走了，请把我忘记。是我遗忘了要坚强的誓言，是我背叛了相守的承诺。。。

剥开外表的强硬，虚浮的言辞，我不过是一只恐惧的动物，终有崩溃的一天。。。

    Got one more exam left but it is gonna be on next week. Feel so relax!

    I think it is time to work out again. I've eaten too much since exams began, u know nothing to do expect eat and read. So damn bored! I mean i don't afraid about reports, papers, only exams make me sucks!

    I gonna say it was an amazing semester for me but finished. Before i kept complaining my school life sucks and i really wanna rush it. But this semester i was very enjoy! 

    Thx Victor, Carlo,Golf and Adem, u guys r amazing and awesome! I think the final report that we worked on is damn good. U guys r so smart and taught me many stuff. Like...histroy i think~:) And the night we worked on ppt was fun, isn't it? It was remind me the episodes"Friends", we had pizza together, it was kinda cool for me. I mean it is first time for me in Thailand had such great with team members.

     And Fonio, thx u too. U r very responsible ppl and I really have fun to work with u.

     Hope we still can be friends outside the school! Miss u guys~~

A short break during exams, feel tired, lazy, empty, dying...

Keep fighting on weekend!