I used to be a happy girl, when i was young, when i was at school, when i know nothing about love...

      I can be a happy girl, if there is a clear direction, there r couple close friends, there is someone i liked likes me...

      If there is no if, my life will be easy...

      I have to stop thinking about if, coz whatever i thought if..., it is never gotta happen!~I think i don't have right to imagine...

      Tell me, should i start to enjoy my life, or should i just follow the routine?

      I do know some parts deep inside me keep yelling to me: just do whatever u what! But i just can't. there r too much thing i have to concern, so i just can't be myelf...i just can't be happy... 

Exams coming again, wish me luck!

Hey~

       It was sad to hear u sick

       I don't know why i was crying? It because i would be alone or i was crying for u...

       I've been stuck into that amazing night, think of u, dream about u...

       I am going crazy, out of control

       The day is too long for me without u

       A dream makes me smile when u was there

       Reach ur heart, touch ur arm, feel ur breath...

       It is all my desire...  

 

Hey~

       I must be a witch at preexistence,I told fairy to give ur health back. But as a tradeoff, i have to suffer ur pain. I said yes, so no worry~~~u will recover soon~~~

    God help me out

    Why it is happening to me

    I dont wanna suffer such miserable stuff, it is killing me!!!

    I dont fear to be challenged, even it is tough

    I dont fear to sacrifice, even it is hurt

    But at least let me know there could be something out there

                                      there will be some direction to guide me

    All I am asking is a chance!!!

    It is just unscure in the dark, feel nothing....

    But i am still trying, I dont wanna give up without getting one chance to prove myself

    Why dont u just give me a chance, or u just wanna watch me go through those pain and make fun with me...

    Whatever result, let me know. If it is ur show, I will play my role as u expected!!!   

     Too much works and pressures. Too much fucking stuff

     Whatever, skip Valentine's Day, but still wish all my dear friends Happy, happier, happiest!

    

  

       It is been a long time, i can't feel myself, what i think or what i act, it is totally differently as what i used to be. I choose to forget who i am so i don't have to suffer too much pain. I thought i will be dead-inside forever.

       I don't know whether i can find way out unless u r there. If there is a hope, i am willing to wait, to stay...

       I wanna turn back to who i really was. Even it is painful, but it is real.

       It makes feel i am still alive. 

       

       

        最近真的很沮丧，无由的沮丧， 外加忙碌。

        突然很想寻求一些新的东西，我想是自己绷的太紧了吧

        很想自己的生活能有些改变，或许能在自己烦乱的生活中添些惊奇

        问题是，新的东西在哪里？我应该去寻吗？应该主动去寻吗？还是应该一如既往的等待，接受安排？

        我真想把自己的头剥开洗洗，或许问题会少些，用起来也清澈些~

        我不停地写却不知道自己到底想表达什么，郁闷集结让我连应付人的心情都没有

        应该是该出去走走，还是继续困住自己~~~救命啊！！！

       Everything suck!!!

       Why there r so many things in my mind, i can't breathe~

       I felt myself suck~and stupid!!! get out my head, u suck staff~~!!!

       Sh*t!

      

     我愿变作一只狐狸，于是我便可以魅惑众生却不带任何愧疚；

                            于是我便是一只妖精，可以来去无影；

                            于是我便可以猎取你的思想，看清是否有我的居所。

     厌倦了只有梦中有你，或许遗忘来的更加痛快些

     为什么连声音都会让人产生思念，思念是波，却永远传不到终点

     不要管我写什么，我沮丧了，找不到出口，困在自己突然封起的结界。

     我定是只修炼不到家的妖，锁不住想要的却绑住了自己。

     害怕自己的冲动愚弄了自己，于是我踌躇不定，猜测种种

     原来是自作多情。。。

     或许

     来世做只狐狸，真的是一种解脱。。。

 

    I am losing, but it is not what i want like losing my weight. i am kinda losing my mind.

    I don't know who am i, who am i surpose to be? what do i want? where do i wanna go?

    I am just waiting, but i don't know what am i waiting? who am i waiting?

    I don't see any future of mine, i start to enjoy the life i have right now, i wanna it keep going without stop. Even i am busy, i am tired, it is just make me know i am still alive.

    I think i was thinking too much to lose myself. I also know whatever i was thinking, i just can't get it.

    I lost the confidence i used to have before, there are something i don't even dare to try coz i am afraid to lose it.

    I think whatever i am afraid it is only because i scared about failure and been rejected. 

    I feel depressed...

 

     一个多星期了，先是为了爸妈来可以抽时间陪他们而赶了许多作业，在陪他们的时候又为了作业不能落下又在赶，等他们回去了再为了能按时完成作业不停地赶。。。。

     更新了几张家人和自己的照片，似乎已经成为最大的乐趣了~不行了，我要睡了！！！